From Contentless to Contentment

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 I am back with my blog after a span of 15 months. The reason was that I was not busy in academia, but I was trying to keep my deteriorating health and career.

 I used to be a firm believer in “Only dead fish go with the flow”, but with time, I realised that altering the natural flow is exhausting and gets me nowhere. It is well said that when life hits you hard, hit life harder, but this is not always true. Sometimes, you must sit down and observe the flow. In the past few months, life has turned up to the worst of its phases, although it is not easy to claim it as worse. The only thing that worked for me was the concept of ‘Taoism’, which is the art of not trying. Many times, life asks us to act and ‘not try’. Even many circumstances need not be backed by logic or scientific reasoning. Nothing works when you are going through failures and rejections in your profession and deteriorating medical conditions that cannot be reverted back. The only thing that works is embracing reality and not trying to simplify things. Even the hope that everything will be fixed in its place one day doesn’t make any sense. Only accepting whatever life throws at you and surrendering to the flow is the resort. This self-generated emptiness makes you content less as you just left as an observer of your life’s uneven patterns. Life is tough, but it is also too simple to understand. Considering yourself as a mere observer is the crux of the entire journey, and then surrendering to the natural flow is no more an act but becomes your quality.

All these things end up filling you up with neutrality where nothing makes sense but nature and its flow. The eternal contentment of emptiness is the final outcome earned.

Note: It is fine if nothing makes sense to you.

 

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  1. Nishant SapraJune 6, 2024 at 3:35 PM

    A fresh perspective!! Adorable way to look at life and struggles !

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  2. Vi.RajJune 8, 2024 at 7:34 AM

    Well said. Although I have never been an admirer of those who romanticize their struggles, your story and life are a fine example of enduring courage. Your positivity, though it occasionally fades, demonstrates not only a strong character but also a beautiful soul. Keep it up, Pragya. I don't know if it matters, but I want to say, "I am proud of who you are and what you have made of yourself."

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